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hey everyone, me here jamming to my beloved album of Face2Face's Ultimate Sacrifice album live...i miss them so much, im gald i had the chance to meet them b4. they are such an awesome praise and worship band, they help me feel Jesus so much...right now i can feel Him here, like i feel so good, comforted, im so happy...i dont ever want to leave, i just feel like jumping up and down, lifting my hands. like now i am in tears because it feels so good to be back with Jesus...because lately i've been slipping spiritually and i see myself as a hypocrite becuase i go against my own advice to others. i no i should be taking my own advice as well, and i do. however its only for a few weeks which really get me angry with myself...i pray but feel no different, and i get discouraged. but when i hear songs of praise, they just bring me up because i am telling God how wonderful He is and how much i love Him. its just an undescribable feeling, being in Jesus's presence. i never ever want to leave when i feel His presence, i want to be here, anywhere, with Him. let me say something about myself...yes i am all for God, i love Him, but i am afraid that my actions dont show it, that i am slipping. i've had 2 encounters with Jesus at my home when i would just listen to my praise and worship cd's. those time i brought myself to him without anyone but myself, and that means something to me. no one prayed for me, no one layed hands, no one lead a prayer, it was just me and Jesus. and i look back at what i had done and regret it but i no Jesus forgave me and i dont feel the same anymore, like im a different person, for the better. but i really dislike it when i fall spiritually, that i stray away from Him...off topic but im just drowning in tears i guess you could say here in class. singing songs praising Him is just so overwhelming becuase i can just feel Him reaching down and putting His hand on my shoulder saying "I'm here." i swear, i feel His presence...and i just dont know wut else to say. He is Holy and He is loving. His love is unconditional and He will forgive us because His love has no end for His chlidren. He gives me reassurance, that everything is going to be ok, that i'm not a faliure, that i will prevail, that He is here by my side. but the enemy is always blinding me, telling me lies which i, unfourtunatley, believe sometimes. but i know there are people out there praying for me and i know i am a man of God, that i will be a warrior for Him and bring many to His Grace.
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